Letting Go

2 Mar
Horse Hug

Horse Hug

Sometimes your heart just knows.

There were a lot of reasons why adopting a horse at that point in my life was a bad idea. I was trying to find my way through a college class schedule and work three jobs. I would be setting myself back financially with the extra bills. And as horses go, Spot wasn’t “easy”. He was scared of everything, too big for his own good and stubborn as hell. When he wasn’t breaking things, he was running away, or kicking people, or (to mix things up) slamming them into walls. The farrier and vet visits were always an adventure, and trailering…? Forget it.
Oh…and did I mentioned he was only half-trained? The canter was interspersed with bucking, especially when he saw a whip of any sort…even if the rider wasn’t the one holding it.
Somehow, though, the idea of him walking out of my life was heart breaking.
Eleven years ago, while volunteering at Second Chance Ranch (a local horse rescue), I met and adopted Spot…and he changed my life. He taught me the meaning of patience. He blossomed as he aged, turning into a more confident version of himself. He became the “road block” on trail rides to keep the runaways in line. He gave lessons to beginners and helped teach children the joys of horsemanship. As he learned to trust, his personality shined through. He was challenging, playful and infinitely affectionate.
While he was never a “push button” horse, to me, he was perfect.
Yesterday Spot lost the battle with sinus cancer. As one person said, “now he is breathing easier, playing with his friends in horse heaven.” I’m so grateful for the time I had with him. He left some gigantic footprints in my heart and taught me so much about life, reliability and love. ❤

27 Responses to “Letting Go”

  1. ljr3 March 2, 2013 at 8:23 pm #

    I’m sorry for your loss. Animals are such a gift. You can see the love between you two.

    • seeingspotsphoto March 3, 2013 at 1:06 pm #

      Thank you for the kind words. It’s very much appreciated.

  2. Susan Stone March 2, 2013 at 8:48 pm #

    Even as I started this story, I somehow knew it would be heartbreaking. Bless you for seeing past the negatives and accepting the positives that Spots had to offer. You’re a special person for doing so. I am saddened for your loss and wish I could give you a hug.

    • seeingspotsphoto March 3, 2013 at 1:08 pm #

      Thank you so much, Susan. He was a very special guy…I think that us overcoming the difficulties of his younger days together made the bond between us very strong. It was an experience that definitely made us both stronger. 🙂

  3. Mike March 2, 2013 at 8:55 pm #

    So, so sorry…

  4. photosfromtheloonybin March 2, 2013 at 10:41 pm #

    Beautiful photo and wonderful memories of a great friend. I’m so sorry that you have to deal with the loss of Spot, but it’s wonderful to see the great attitude you have about the part he played in your life. You will never forget him that’s for sure!

    • seeingspotsphoto March 3, 2013 at 1:19 pm #

      You’re so right! He left me with so many powerful memories…I plan to hold those close for a long time. 🙂

  5. Thodoris Tzalavras March 2, 2013 at 11:22 pm #

    So sorry for your loss…

  6. ginnietom March 3, 2013 at 2:59 pm #

    sooo… sorry…loosing a horse is just more like loosing a dog or other pet, it’s just like loosing a partnership sharing with these intelligent guys…but your baby has left this planet the same way, all other animals use…passing the bridge over the rainbow to lope in rainbow land…
    sharing with you…

    • seeingspotsphoto March 5, 2013 at 2:28 am #

      So true! A healthy horse relationship really is a partnership. (Guess that can be a universal statement, for more than just our animal-people interactions, huh? lol) As you said though, he is free to run and see the friends that went before him now.

      Thank you for the kind words.

      • ginnietom March 5, 2013 at 2:50 am #

        remarkable response…hope you´re feeling any better…

  7. Nareen Luz Rivas March 3, 2013 at 5:34 pm #

    It takes a genuine, brave and compassionate person like you to have given Spot a chance and not give up on him. It was why he was able to thrive and grow into the kind of horse that he eventually became. A gift of friendship for both of you.

    • seeingspotsphoto March 5, 2013 at 2:25 am #

      Thank you so much for this. I did what I felt was best for him, but in the end, I think it helped us both grow. 🙂

  8. kasmango March 4, 2013 at 1:35 am #

    Losing a best friend is never easy.. so sorry for your loss.

    • seeingspotsphoto March 5, 2013 at 2:23 am #

      Very true. Everyone is being so supportive though. It certainly helps! I appreciate it.

  9. FeyGirl March 4, 2013 at 4:10 am #

    What a beautiful tribute to a gorgeous guy…. From one’s who’s lost a (rescue) horse, a true companion, I send you much love and empathy. They are so very much.

    • seeingspotsphoto March 5, 2013 at 2:23 am #

      Thank you so much for the kind words. Animals in general, and rescues in particular really pull on my heart strings. Seems like you probably understand. 🙂

  10. Photography Journal Blog March 8, 2013 at 12:52 pm #

    I’m very sorry for your loss.

    • seeingspotsphoto March 12, 2013 at 5:49 pm #

      Thank you for taking a moment to say so. It’s very much appreciated. 🙂

  11. Carissa March 10, 2013 at 10:24 pm #

    I’m so sorry for your loss. What a wonderful time you gave each other though. You’ll always have that.

    • seeingspotsphoto March 12, 2013 at 5:46 pm #

      It’s true, I plan to just hold on to the many great memories we made together. 🙂 Thank you for the condolences.

  12. earthstills April 19, 2013 at 7:49 am #

    What a beautiful life lesson – that the things you can’t afford are perhaps exactly what you need, Inspirational post, thank you!

    • seeingspotsphoto April 19, 2013 at 2:50 pm #

      Thank you for taking a moment to comment. 🙂 I agree, there is rarely a good time financially for a lot of life’s important lessons. I think that’s part of the lesson. haha

  13. artistspromenade April 20, 2013 at 9:12 pm #

    I’m sorry for your pain, losing a loved one is difficult.
    Godspeed Spot!

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